February 19, 2009

Follow up to small wonders

So freaking weird - so yeasterday afternoon I posted the lyrics way before my oldest came home from a friends house. As he came in the door - i knew he had dinner over their house, so I asked him, would you like to watch a movie before bed? Sure thing he replied, and he said what about meet the robinsons!? Wow really? How strange is that? We have not seen this movie in months, we did not talk about it, I do not even own the song. That little boy is so in tuned with me that it some times scares me.

Cool

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February 18, 2009

Lyric to LITTLE WONDERS - Rob Thomas

Lyrics from such an amazing movie - Meet the robinsons! I cry everytime i see that movie! It is so deep and meaning ful for me as I am adopted and in search of my birth mother - It just moves me everytime. If you have not see this movie - you should!

Let it go, Let it roll right off your shoulder
Don't you know
The hardest part is over
Let it in, Let your clarity define you
In the end We will only just remember how it feels
Our lives are made
In these small hours
These little wonders,
These twists & turns of fate
Time falls away, But these small hours, These small hours still remain
Let it slide, Let your troubles fall behind you
Let it shine Until you feel it all around you
And i don't mind
If it's me you need to turn to We'll get by, It's the heart that really matters in the end
Our lives are made
In these small hours
These little wonders,
These twists & turns of fate
Time falls away, But these small hours, These small hours still remain
All of my regret Will wash away some how
But i can not forget
The way i feel right now In these small hours
These little wonders
These twists & turns of fate These twists & turns of fate
Time falls away but these small hours
These small hours, still remain, Still remain
These little wonders
These twists & turns of fate
Time falls away
But these small hours
These little wonders still remain

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Cub Scouts at our House!

Last night I openned our home to my den of cub scouts and their parents. They were to be working on a few projects for scouts that they needed to accomplish before March so we can move them ahead to the next level. They are close but need some final things done.
So they arrive there are four total but only three come over. Three 7/8 year old boys, second graders - wow! Then there is our almost 4 year old who thinks he is 7 like his brother. There is troy, another mom and myself. Pretty good ratio right? Well you would be amazed on how out numbered we are.
The is one child who wants to be called BOB, the other one is having seperation issues from his mother (who is there) because she just had a little boy 4 weeks ago, there is our 7 year old who think he is all that and a bag of chips, and aagain the almost 4 year old who is just plain olde silly~!
So off to the workshop we go to teach them about tools and how to use them. They are as good as you can expect! Silly, loud and totally rambuntious. They make a really cool recipie card holder and off we go with more sillyness.
Inside we travel to make our own pizzas - cool right? Well I do not like this or that and can i wear the dough? When will my mom be here? Can I eat the raw dough? Oh the list of questions goes on and on! We make the pizzas and then onto the next project while they are cooking. All is going well till the pizzas burn, and the 4 year old starts to draw on everyones projects! UGH
Now we are back to eatting the pizza ands making our own sundaes, and waiting on the last parent to show up for pick up! In all I can say I am soooo done with having children and so done with boys for the week - will today ever end? not sure it is only 8:35

February 16, 2009

monday morning ramble

So last night I shared with my hubby for the first time many of my blog entries. He is not on unifyer or the internet that much, and I even asked if he would like a facebook account or unifyer....not yet he replied. So we shared my blog and my feelings. It pretty much allowed us to reconnect ~ something we do about once a week, after the kids are down for the night we sit and talk about what went on this past week and what we are up to for the rest of the week ahead. I know this sounds strange to connect only once a week, but this is deep connections, like dating. We are finding that once he gets home there is dinner, kids to bed, bills and chores and then two very beat parents off to sleep land. Very little energy to connect, talk, share or just be next to eachother.
So last night was the time. Not valentines day, not friday night date but an un scheduled time to be with eachother. It was good. He shared with me his feelings about our family and attending SPCC, how the kids are growing in the church and how we as a couple are growing as a church. Many of you know Troy, but not well enough to know he likes to tease me, and in a very loving way. If you ever watch us in church during the sermon, we nudge or poke, or even whisper to eachother little funny things and sometimes things like "hey he is talking to you!" LOL I love it!
In our old church we would have never felt comfortable to do such a thing. Even when we went back to Christmas Eve service, we were like two teen agers attending chuch, we were giggling and just enjoying being there with eachother. We both also felt like we were going to get in trouble any second by his mother or some of the church elders. LOL
But last night was a good night of conversation, it was lots of "Hey you know I have an issue and I would really like to talk with you, is now a good time?" he he but it made us see that we are open with eachother, I might be HOT headed oh pretty much all the time, and he is cool joe till he looses it! (this is a kinda between right). But we always talk, we never allow our anger or issues grow. Troy is my best friend, I share everything with him, If i get mad or angery with him, then I need to fix it quick, cause I have only him to put me in time out!
So there are my morning ramblings about the Love i have for my spouse and how he is my best

February 13, 2009

misc. LOVE

As you might know about reading my blog is that we have two boys 7 & 4. This is an entry about their LOVE. This is a brotherly LOVE that is most of the time hidden behind the need to be heard, seen and have 100% attention on "ME""THEM" etc. So last night we put our boys to bed, they share a room, and we say our good nights then retreat to our own bedroom to read (hubby) and me crochet. Over the SPY monitor, we hear our 4 year old getting up and telling his brother he is going down stairs. The 7 year old replies "But I can not sleep with out you, please don't go!" stomp stomp stomp the little one comes down the stairs."I can't sleep!" Stomp stomp stomp the oldest comes down. "Dylan I need you to be in our room I can not sleep without you! Please come back up?"So we get the little one to go back up stairs with the insentive that his brother is there with him, stomp stomp stomp they both retreat up the stairs.Over the spy monitor we hear the 7 year old "Thanks Dylan I know you might be scared but I am here and I need you here to sleep!" I was amazing on the LOVE he was sharing, I enjoied hearing that, knowing he did not know I was listening. Some days are better than others and they show it so differently. But as I lay in bed this am I hear them fighting like a cat and a dog - over something that was small and usless. I just have to reflect on the pure thoughts of last night!

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February 11, 2009

Random Thoughts


So I was at the Library book sale this past weekend, and as I was looking though the kids books there was this book that seemed out of place, really it did . The binding read A Time to Love - now my thoughts were like why is this in the Kids section? Weird! So I picked it up and looked at it! There was a beautiful image on the front of a mans arms wrapped around many different colored people, it was an amazing peice of Art. For those who do not know me too well I love Art, always have, all types.So I am looking at this book And I open it to see that it says Stories from the Old Testament - wow. Reading more it states " six stories from the old testament that invite you on a soul-stirring journey though biblical antiguity and into the meaning of LOVE! WOWA book called out to me from the childrens section and it is all about LOVE in the bible. Crazy - weird and I am sure all planned out by God. So I had to get the book, what other book would call out to me like that? Not to many. So I drove home and shared my find with Troy, and he thought it was amazing as well. So here I am a person who hates to read, who has trouble reading because of a learning disablity, who had never opened a bible till september - a person who never saw her self reading because she wanted to and had the desire to learn more about God, people and the need to share about her self! Is this part of the plan layed out for me so many years before I was born - Sure thing! WOW! So there are my ramblings for today and I will get to the next Day of 40 Days of Community later!

February 10, 2009

Just liked these lyrics -

Halo lyricsRemember those walls I builtWell, baby they're tumbling downAnd they didn't even put up a fightThey didn't even make up a soundI found a way to let you inBut I never really had a doubtStanding in the light of your haloI got my angel nowIt's like I've been awakenedEvery rule I had you breakin'It's the risk that I'm takin'I ain't never gonna shut you outEverywhere I'm looking nowI'm surrounded by your embraceBaby I can see your haloYou know you're my saving graceYou're everything I need and moreIt's written all over your faceBaby I can feel your haloPray it won't fade awayI can feel your halo halo haloI can see your halo halo haloI can feel your halo halo haloI can see your halo halo haloHit me like a ray of sunBurning through my darkest nightYou're the only one that I wantThink I'm addicted to your lightI swore I'd never fall againBut this don't even feel like fallingGravity can't forgetTo pull me back to the ground againFeels like I've been awakenedEvery rule I had you breakin'The risk that I'm takin'I'm never gonna shut you outEverywhere I'm looking nowI'm surrounded by your embraceBaby I can see your haloYou know you're my saving graceYou're everything I need and moreIt's written all over your faceBaby I can feel your haloPray it won't fade awayI can feel your halo halo haloI can see your halo halo haloI can feel your halo halo haloI can see your halo halo haloI can feel your halo halo haloI can see your halo halo haloI can feel your halo halo haloI can see your halo halo haloHalo, haloEverywhere I'm looking nowI'm surrounded by your embraceBaby I can see your haloYou know you're my saving graceYou're everything I need and moreIt's written all over your faceBaby I can feel your haloPray it won't fade awayI can feel your halo halo haloI can see your halo halo haloI can feel your halo halo haloI can see your halo halo haloI can feel your halo halo haloI can see your halo halo haloI can feel your halo halo haloI can see your halo halo halo© B-DAY PUBLISHING; EMI APRIL MUSIC INC.; Halo lyricsRemember those walls I builtWell, baby they're tumbling downAnd they didn't even put up a fightThey didn't even make up a soundI found a way to let you inBut I never really had a doubtStanding in the light of your haloI got my angel nowIt's like I've been awakenedEvery rule I had you breakin'It's the risk that I'm takin'I ain't never gonna shut you outEverywhere I'm looking nowI'm surrounded by your embraceBaby I can see your haloYou know you're my saving graceYou're everything I need and moreIt's written all over your faceBaby I can feel your haloPray it won't fade awayI can feel your halo halo haloI can see your halo halo haloI can feel your halo halo haloI can see your halo halo haloHit me like a ray of sunBurning through my darkest nightYou're the only one that I wantThink I'm addicted to your lightI swore I'd never fall againBut this don't even feel like fallingGravity can't forgetTo pull me back to the ground againFeels like I've been awakenedEvery rule I had you breakin'The risk that I'm takin'I'm never gonna shut you outEverywhere I'm looking nowI'm surrounded by your embraceBaby I can see your haloYou know you're my saving graceYou're everything I need and moreIt's written all over your faceBaby I can feel your haloPray it won't fade awayI can feel your halo halo haloI can see your halo halo haloI can feel your halo halo haloI can see your halo halo haloI can feel your halo halo haloI can see your halo halo haloI can feel your halo halo haloI can see your halo halo haloHalo, haloEverywhere I'm looking nowI'm surrounded by your embraceBaby I can see your haloYou know you're my saving graceYou're everything I need and moreIt's written all over your faceBaby I can feel your haloPray it won't fade awayI can feel your halo halo haloI can see your halo halo haloI can feel your halo halo haloI can see your halo halo haloI can feel your halo halo haloI can see your halo halo haloI can feel your halo halo haloI can see your halo halo halo© B-DAY PUBLISHING; EMI APRIL MUSIC INC.;

February 9, 2009

Reflecting on yesterday! (sunday 2/8/9)

Reflecting on such an amazing day filled with tears, laughter, music, family, community, powerful indeed! There I was not so sure what all that stuff was still doing in the middle of church, I knew the liquid was putting together these AIDS kits, but why did they leave their mess there? How rude! LOL Well I was sitting there with my husband, we were enjoying the coffee and pastry, the fellowship, being able to hug people good morning and pass peace to one another, which always feels good! Having the pastors know my name, having half the church know who I am and reading my nametag without hesitation, it all felt good! I always feel good to walk through the doors of St. Paul’s. So again back to sitting there and thinking that liquid folks should have cleaned up their mess. Listening to Ben talk about all the amazing projects that we at St. Paul’s will be a part of not only in these 40 days of community but beyond that, for years to come. Talk about Church to church relations and how one is a given while another is the receiver, and full circle it will come back to us.
Amazing! This is stuff I missed out on while growing up, sure I worked in soup kitchens and collected money to feed the poor, but did I understand why? Not so sure. I dibbed and dabbed in community service as a girl scout and in college because we HAD to ~ but did I get it? I am still not so sure. Then I met my husband, he told me of his church, a mission based United Methodist church, which used to do ASP, and go and build home in the south for the poor. He told me of all the other types of projects they used to do, and I thought Wow – that is a church at work! Now I am here at St. Paul’s and I love what the people here do, how much they LOVE their community and love the people in the community. It is awesome.
I really absorbed the videos that were shown on Sunday, and even cried. I watched my husband hold back the tears, and a friend to my left. It was inspiring to know that we as a church, a family a community would be able to help so many with so little. So what Am I DOING? Well we decided as a family to sponsor 2 children for FACT - Feed Panama (Panama City, Panama), I have gone shopping for the "Hootalooya" Community Dinner Program, and will do so each week or each time I go shopping. I have contacted Bev with Care Net Pregnancy Center (Storrs), and asked her when I could come in and help, and let her know I am willing to do pretty much anything that is needed. The last one is very important to me and I know I want to help with Care Net, long after the 40 days are up, the reasons I will share later in my blog.
Let me just say that this Sunday like so many before has really had a major impact on my life and is allowing me to Grow, learn and most of all Love!

February 6, 2009

Banannas

Such a simple perfect food - right?Well how about this we have gone through over 5 lbs of banannas in the past week -WHAT?Yeah the family is on a bananna kick, seems that each time I leave the house and pass a store I have to pick up a "bunch" of banannas. They are green (our youngests favorite color) when I get them and depending on where I leave them in the kitchen they will stay longer than other places. Near the wall and the sink they stay hard and green longer, then they do over the kitchen table. WHY? I am sure there is some scientific reason, and you know what? I really do not care!What I care about is the digestive health of my family and WHY does everyone eat so many banannas? The perfect fruit, the beautiful yellow color, and the mixture of light brown spots make this a fun to watch fruit! Have you ever left one out way to long? YUCK right? I think it is amazing to see one rot into brown/black mush! First it is a beautiful line green, then a pale green almost yellow. They turn an amazing golden yellow and start to freckle, then the freckles spread over the bananna until it takes over the bananna and turns BLACK! All black and mushy! then we eat bananna bread for weeks!